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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Dream: when naught but heaven calls

I could entirely misquote Scripture right now. It is a verse that I think has often been misapplied by others teaching me. Random teaching I have heard. Not constant teaching that I am under now. This is the good and faithful Proverbs 29:18. In order to misapply it well, one must use the old King James Version, “Where there is no vision, the people perish.” You also have to ignore the second half of the verse to get the full effect of the misapplication (which I did in this quote. The rest will follow later).

I have heard this verse often used in Christian circles to prove why having the kind of vision that American business owners or corporations have is important. Or why it is important to have goals and a personal “vision” in one’s personal life. Basically, it has been interpreted to me as the reason you need a direction and goals to work toward because otherwise you will “perish” — lose heart along the journey of life.

Now before I move on about what I was planning on talking about, I would like to just point out that the verse isn’t talking about what Americans refer to as vision but of prophetic vision as referred to in the Old Testament. Now some of you may be getting excited and say, “Yeah, but prophecy is about the future, and if you don’t know what you are working toward and have that vision from God, you aren’t going to make it. You need direction and goals that you can work toward or you’re going to sink.”

But prophetic vision is mostly calling people and cultures out for their sin. It is mostly about taking already revealed words of God, and then warning the local cultures that unless they repent they will perish. Old Testament prophecy was mostly about warning the people that if they didn’t keep the Mosaic law, there was going to be serious consequences. To quote the complete verse in a translation that uses more current English, “When people do not accept divine guidance, they run wild. But whoever obeys the law is joyful.” A bit different from perishing from losing heart if you don’t have a stated life vision. I rest my case. Anyways, I would like to think that I do. :)

But what brought this verse to my mind recently is that I have been struggling with feeling like I am sinking because I have no vision, no direction, and no idea what to do. The people may not be perishing as a consequence, but Laura feels like she is. And people have been trying to get her to find direction. She becomes even more annoyed by people who try to get her to find a new direction than she previously was when she had no direction at all.

I have begun to wonder if it is possible to live to my full potential as a Jesus’ follower if I keep looking for and inventing goals and visions. When people try to get me to decide where I want to go next, I want to just answer (and sometimes I do), “Heaven.”

What if I just did what Jesus asked me to do today, knowing full well that I may be Home with Him tomorrow? I may not be Home tomorrow. I may be here, but what is my responsibility toward tomorrow anyway? Jesus is pretty consistent in telling me that He will provide me with DAILY bread and not to worry about tomorrow. What does that mean?

I don’t know, but I imagine that it doesn’t mean that I have to create a life vision for my life. I don’t have to have career goals that I am driving toward. I don’t have to be working hard to go in a direction that I entirely made up in order to make myself and my friends feel better because my life now looks better in the eyes of the American Dream.

I am not against commitment. I think it is one of the most beautiful ways we love others in the same way that God loves us.

I am not against careers. I think they are a wonderful way that we challenge ourselves to further develop spiritually, emotionally and intellectually.

I am not against goals. I think they are a wonderful way to help us practice self-discipline as we work toward them.

But I am against just making stuff up to make my friends and me feel better about my current existence. Unless God says, “Go!”, how could I ever decide where to go? Does it really matter what I do on earth unless He has asked me to do it? I have been around the “Let’s create goals and direction by force because I am pissed about what God has told me to do” mountain. It sucks.

This past weekend I wrote a “I desire” statement. It was several sentences about what I desire in this temporal life. I can’t seem to get myself to create even short long-term goals without feeling like I am walking away from what God has actually asked me to do, but I can write out what I desire.

I am not going to share it all here. It is too personal. I will share some. The first line is, “I desire that should I reach the age of sixty to look back on the decisions that I made during this time with joy and pleasure.” It ends, “I desire to one day hear, ‘Well Done.’”

No statement in it is unable to be fulfilled no matter what my job title, paycheck or location on earth is. He is going to get to choose those things and change me in the process.

As we walk that way together, maybe it will be okay if I do what He asks me to do today and trust that He will tell me what to do tomorrow. And when it is His time, then my dreams will all come true for He shall call me Home.

Do you have a vision? What are you working toward? What do you desire in life?


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