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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Circumstance: is God faithful?

I have been thinking. At this point in our relationship, that probably doesn’t surprise you. If I had said, “I have been overthinking”, that would not surprise you either. This week I don’t think I have been overthinking.

You ever go through a time in your life when circumstances don’t look at all like you want them to? Sometimes for several years in a row? At various points along the way you give up hope of things ever changing. This is just the way it would seem it will be for the rest of your time on earth.

I have been there. Sometimes when I am there, I wonder whether God is faithful. I question whether He loves me. I wonder how much He loves me, or if He has perhaps forgotten me for a time. He has so many kids, so what if He just forgot one for a little while? I wonder these things sometimes. More often they seem to be subconscious lies permeating my life.

Most often I give up on the promises of God. I think things will never change. I think God must have lied to me. I think there is no way for good to come from such pain. I quit seeing the work He is doing in the situation. I start looking at my circumstances; and I wonder, “Is God faithful?”

This week I was thinking. I decided that the lie I struggle with in the difficult circumstances in my life was learned during the pleasant circumstances of my life. After all, it was then when I concluded, “Life feels good. God is faithful.” I could afford the new dress or the more expensive Cheerios. The relationship worked out. He answered my prayers with a “yes”. I got what I wanted, so I concluded that God is faithful.

It was then that I taught myself the lie. It was then I thought the lie was okay because at least I was excited about God. Did it really matter why I was excited about Him?

But this week I have concluded that the lies I taught myself in the good times are the ones that nearly destroy me in the painful times. If I had based my confidence in God during the good times on His faithfulness instead of how I felt, then it would not be so hard to learn during the hard times that God’s faithfulness is not determined by how I feel.

God’s faithfulness is His inability to break His promises. I considered that His promises don’t always feel good. For example, He promised the Israelites that if they worshiped other gods, He would punish them with captivity. When their nation was invaded, raided and taken captive by murderers, thugs and other empires, it was indeed a sign of God’s faithfulness. He also promised that if they repented, He would bring them back to their own country; and He did. He was faithful.

I have had seasons in my life like that too. God said if I sowed sin, I would reap death. When I ignored His warnings to turn from the error of my ways, I reaped a lot of destruction and pain in my life.

I considered that I often don’t want God to give me what I think I want. I considered that there is a chapter in Scripture about God letting people get exactly what they want. It is a passage that makes me never want what my flesh wants ever again. Romans 1 says, “Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another…. They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, God-haters…”

I don’t want to base whether I believe God is faithful on whether He gives me what I want. I don’t want what my flesh wants. I want to base my belief on God’s faithfulness. His Truth. His ability to keep every single promise He ever promised me.

A few months ago, I saw someone I had not seen in a year. They asked me how the last year was. “Painful,” I said. “It was an incredibly painful year. But I have a lot more fruit of the Spirit in my life now than I did last year at this time. That is the one thing He always promises us. No matter how painful life is, we can always have more of Him.”

I am so grateful that His promises are always true. I am grateful He often doesn’t give me what I think I want. I am grateful that there is a promise that I know He will keep.

And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns. Philippians 1:6

He will remain faithful.

On what do you base your belief that God is faithful? When life feels good, do you tell yourself it is evidence of His faithfulness? How do you remain confident in Him when life hurts?

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