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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae


“For I know the plans I have for you.” I sure am glad someone does. It was my last day off before returning to regular routine, so I made the most of it. I slept in as long as I could. I did almost nothing today. I drank hot chocolate and realized at 3 pm that I had not eaten all day, which made it hard to not be hangry the rest of the evening. Honestly though this post will not sound much like it, it was a bit of a rough day emotionally. I was just off. I don’t know why. Maybe the no food and hot chocolate thing.

I had conversations with people I have not talked to in forever. It is good to give at least three relationships the right momentum for the year. I won one battle with a computer and lost another. Though last night I was sure I was in no way going to touch my writing until Monday, I pulled it out this afternoon and read some of what I had written. Maybe that is what I will do on Monday, write a lot. I am excited. I think I am ready, but we will see. Perhaps it is too soon, but I think it is time.

I am so excited for tomorrow on so many levels. I am going to celebrate with people. I am going to celebrate by myself. Tomorrow afternoon a friend is coming to my house, and we are making cookies. It feels so good to have friend friends. The kind of friends you just hangout with for no reason. I like my friends. I like them a lot. I am so glad I get to just have fun tomorrow.

I love how frequently I get to think, “It is so good to be sober.” It is so good to be sober.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the ones I can and the wisdom to know the difference….enjoying one moment at a time…accepting hardship as the pathway to peace

That has to be my very favorite, least-thought-about line of the serenity prayer right now. The last couple years have been filled with the hardship of becoming sober. It is not easy, but it is worth it. Shaking as one withdraws is worth it. That trembling that comes with the fear of falling or perhaps the trembling comes from the strength it takes to find the courage to forsake the old and reach for the new. Perhaps it is just a part of a natural reaction which occurs between handling our negative emotions with addictive and compulsive behaviors and learning to bring them to God and allow Him to help us work through them and release them to Him.

Oh, I am getting preachy, but do you have any idea how good my God is?

I have continued my quest of discovering if in fact I should focus on who I am and what my rights are. Today I read Thessalonians with this intent. Seeing as the books were written when the Thessalonian church was 6-24 months old, I figure it is full of things that Paul told new followers of the Way. So far, I have reached no conclusion except that he didn’t seem to focus on who they were, more on what they should do. That the God they served was absolute awesomeness and so was the grace they experienced, seemed to be a given.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. – Jeremiah 29:11

Odd that I would not consider this one of my favorite verses, but it sure shows up here a lot. A friend reminded me of this one today,

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. – Hebrews 13:8

Sure glad I am not.

For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. – Romans 8:29


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