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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Bye, bye inward sneer

Monday, May 26, 2014

Some thoughts from today on Jeremiah 29: God isn’t bound to prospering us only in circumstances we find pleasant. He promised the Israelites prosperity not survival in their captivity. He told them to make the most of what they had now and reach out to the people around them. It was in seeking the prosperity of the people around them that they would find their own prosperity. He had plans for a future for them.

If the Israelites had not followed God’s first instructions to make the most of their current circumstances and to “seek the welfare of their city”, they would have died out instead of living to see the fulfillment of God’s promise to bring them home.

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There is always that moment in Mexico when I think “this is the most fun I have ever had in my life.” Today that was when I was singing, “Grande es el amor de Dios” with a bunch of hooligans shaking marimbas. By the end of two hours of “music”, my ears were ringing with the noise. But it is so refreshing to finish a “hallelujah” chorus by throwing scarves in the air and shouting hallelujah. One of the things I can’t do in America. Well, not north of the Rio Grande anyway.

Father, I am never going to be enough for this situation. I am so glad I do not have to be.

My pity broke today. I am so thankful. I was a bit worried I was on a trend to start feeling sorry for people and snubbing them instead of respecting them as equals in every way.

Contempt and pride are always things God is working on in me. I am excited to see a big change in who I am since last year when I was in this same place, doing the same thing. I am so much less insecure. Enormously less inwardly critical of my fellow team members. Last year I did not struggle so much with pitying the people here as I did with not loving and inwardly respecting the people with me. It took hearing a testimony before I would stop critiquing people. Now I am so much less critical of others. I guess I am learning to find my self-worth in Christ and not finding it by trying to figure out ways I am better than the people around me. I no longer have to be better to be okay. In fact, now when I start thinking I am better, I panic and run to God with my issues with contempt – instead of inwardly sneer that He made me better.

This is what the Lord Almighty, the God of Israel, says to all those I carried into exile from Jerusalem to Babylon: “Build houses and settle down; plant gardens and eat what they produce. Marry and have sons and daughters; find wives for your sons and give your daughters in marriage, so that they too may have sons and daughters. Increase in number there; do not decrease. Also, seek the peace and prosperity of the city to which I have carried you into exile. Pray to the Lord for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper.” – Jeremiah 29:4-7

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