I have been thinking a lot today about loving people accidentally versus loving them on purpose. I think I am halfway decently not bad at choosing to spend time with people with whom I want to improve my relationships. I think I am moderately bad at having purposeful conversations with them.
I have not figured out if I am socially awkward or if I just think I am socially awkward. I think I have told you that already. Either way I feel awkward often when socializing.
How many questions is it okay to ask someone? I always feel like I am invading someone’s space when I ask people questions. I figure they will offer me information if they wanted me to know it. On the flip side, I rarely offer information to anyone who is not one of my closest friends without being questioned. I am not usually annoyed by people asking me questions unless it is something personal. However, I always assume it is rude to ask other people an abundance of questions. Or even like three that are not as general as, “So tell me about your job…”
Another issue I have with socializing. Can I just tell someone I like them? It seems like it should be a perfectly normal thing to do. I cannot really remember ever telling someone I like them, but I feel like it should be a normal thing to do. It usually goes from nothing to “luv u”. Why do not we ever say, “Goodnight, I like you!” Okay, that is awkward.
Also when I walk into a party and everyone is already talking to someone, what is the proper thing to do? I assume it is not check my phone like I am in really high demand when actually I am just avoiding figuring out which conversation to join and how to do so.
Last, but not least, can I only eat two cookies? My mom taught me I could only eat two cookies when I visited somewhere. Does that still apply when I am an adult? Because frankly, usually I want three cookies.
How is the heart check? Well, when I actually bother to tune into my underlying emotions, I am still hurting, exhausted, angry and resentful; but I am not tense. Just socially dense.
What sort of Bible verse goes on the end of this anyway? The one in Proverbs about nagging wives or neighbors that have worn out their welcome? I think I will try something more cheerful!
For God loved the world in this way: He gave His one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world that He might condemn the world, but that the world might be saved through Him. – John 3:16-17