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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Awesomely tired

Tuesday – 10:30 pm

I am way too tired to put to coherent thoughts together, so here are two incoherent thoughts. My day was really good in some ways. I talked to God about the smallish things like potty training children. Though I am not convinced this is a smallish thing. I felt His presence the entire day and that was super cool.

I am emotionally and physically exhausted right now though. I entirely crashed during nonCR small group tonight. I have no idea how I will get enough sleep in the next 8 hours to get me through tomorrow. I am entirely overwhelmed right now. Now that I said that, maybe what I actually just have to do is spend some time with God.

The morning job I have that keeps me waking up at 5 am for ten months a year breaks during the summer, so I have been sleeping 1.5-2.5 hours later than I was. The issue with this is I am starting to have disturbing dreams again. It entirely annoys me that I can’t sleep past 5:30-6 without dreaming. It seems like an entirely unfair part of recovery. But then, who said life was fair?

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. – Isaiah 43:2


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