The LORD our God is ever faithful. That song is going through my mind right now. I am fairly emotionally stable. It has been a bit of an up and down day. At one point today I cried so hard I just shook. That is always fun. You want to know the weird part? As I have entered the New Year, which I have been severely unexcited about and have processed a lot of grief and pain, occasionally when I am not in the midst of having my heart ripped open in grief, I start to giggle to myself and say, “This is soooo much fun!” What makes it fun? I think because I have never been this fully alive. Surely one of the reasons I must be blessed when I mourn is because I can only laugh as hard as I cry, scientifically speaking.
I feel really smart today because a department at an Ivy League school is publishing an article I cowrote/ghostwrote. It’s changing my identity. Well, not really. As I study Matthew, I am learning what it means to be a CHILD OF GOD. Jesus had a lot to say about it. He says “that you may be children of your Father in heaven” quite a bit.
You have heard that it was said, “Love your neighbor, and hate your enemy.” But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and send rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. Matthew 5