This year is shaping up to be the best Thanksgiving ever. I actually mean that. I am sitting on a couch at someone else’s house, watching cheesy Christmas movies. This is my tradition. Sometimes I am sitting at my own house, watching the Christmas movies. Sometimes there are other people in the house instead of a dog. But watching Christmas movies is my most consistent tradition over the last few years.
Honestly, I think I am going to have a depression-free weekend. So far it is quite joy filled. Last year by the end of the weekend, I was quite depressed. This year I am quite busy though. Last year I started my one-year, m-word fast. That will change one’s life. I am glad God called me out of darkness into His marvelous light.
I am struggling in my God time again. It is because of the week with x time. I am now scared that I cannot top such awesomeness, and I am running away from being alone with Him. Having coffee together instead of just taking Him along wherever I go as I multitask. I genuinely cannot wait until tomorrow. What if this girl who hates holidays has an amazing Thanksgiving? What then?
I did struggle with anxiety today. Undoubtedly because I did not spend enough time with God. Happens every time. I also had the angry voice within me that whined and rebelled against authority in my life, but it is becoming so much softer. The voice is a little bit softer. Love is filling its place. Compassion is overcoming. Submission is beginning to happen. Praise God!
Mi Dios es tan fuerte, grande, poderoso. No hay nada que no puede hacer. I miss Mexico. I need to prioritize my life, so I can go back. I need to write. Soon. Not tonight, but soon.
Come and see what our God has done, what awesome miracles he performs for people! – Psalm 66:5
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