When I began reflecting on my day tonight, I thought, “Wow, nothing happened today.” Then I thought a bit more and grinned. Of course something happened. I started getting my hope back. Probably because I am healthier than I have been in awhile. I still have a cold, but I am better off than I was yesterday. God is doing such amazing things around me in my church and in my CR and in my heart. How can I be hopeless? Though being sick does make me generally pessimistic.
I did not go to the doctor today because when I first awoke, I actually thought I was healthy for like ten minutes. Did I share a few weeks ago about the whole “Don’t be amazed by sickness; be amazed by health” thing? I thought about that again today. With all the sin and brokenness in this world, it seems to me we can be thankful most of us generally walk around in a relatively healthy state. Yup, our bodies are broken, but isn’t it amazing most of us are healthy most of the time? That said, I cannot wait for this cough to be gone.
I love where God has placed me. I am so incredibly grateful He took this little girl from where she was and grew her to where she is. My brain breaks when I think of what He has entrusted me with. It is so entirely humbling. First He delivered me from the pit others put me in. Then He delivered me from the pit I put myself in. Now He decides to give me influence. Thinking of my story is one of the easiest ways for me to feel small. Another way is for me to remember I am one small piece of His great, big kingdom. A kingdom I can join by choice. One He trusts me with a role in. Humbling is the fact that the kingdom will advance without me should I choose not to participate. He has a plan. His kingdom will come. He graciously invites me to be His daughter and bond-servant in that kingdom. Slave would be a sufficient role for me. Daughter? How can I live one day ungrateful and without joy? I do sometimes. A daughter of a King with an advancing kingdom. How is that not one million times more?
Then Peter began to speak up. “We’ve given up everything to follow you,” he said.
“Yes,” Jesus replied, “and I assure you that everyone who has given up house or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or property, for my sake and for the Good News, will receive now in return a hundred times as many houses, brothers, sisters, mothers, children, and property—along with persecution. And in the world to come that person will have eternal life. But many who are the greatest now will be least important then, and those who seem least important now will be the greatest then.” – Mark 10:28-31
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