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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae


I hope this post is coherent because I am super tired right now. Today I woke up with such peace and joy it was absolutely amazing. I do not even know how to describe it. I had a lot of joy and peace until a little after noon.

Then I started to struggle. I think because once again I started to resist God. (Did I really say something as stupid as “I think” at the beginning of that sentence?!) I just did not really see why I should pray all day. I was never going to get any work done. Well, I certainly did not get much work done when I started to struggle with anxiety.

The afternoon was hard. Come evening, I began to have peace again. I was in prayer. That is probably why. I was listening to things that make me joyful. That is probably why.

Then there was step study tonight. It is the step study I am leading, but reading my answers from when I answered the questions six months ago in my other study. It is so weird, but I am a little thankful I am not in the middle of a step four right now. Once again, I just want to pray. What is it with this fast? I could not ask for more. Now if I can just learn to abide in Him instead of fight it, I shall be more than reasonably happy in this life!!

I have loved you even as the Father has loved me. Remain in my love. When you obey my commandments, you remain in my love, just as I obey my Father’s commandments and remain in his love. I have told you these things so that you will be filled with my joy. Yes, your joy will overflow! – John 15:9-11


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